school sucks balls!

Sooooo i no when a certain person reads this he's gonna yell @ me cuz i should be studying. But got dammit my brain is fryingggggg!!
Funny thin is im studying about the damn brain! Who knew this shit was so difficult??? Its so many things that go on every second of ur life in your body that u never no is happening! This shit is fuccn crazyyyyyyy!!!!! Like how psychopaths have larger brains than normal people because they sit n think about murders and crazy shit every second of everyday! N how theres a fluid that keeps ur brain @ a certain temperature n if ever this fluid was to leak out u could die because ur brain would fry! Jus random stuff. So i jus basically had to vent bcuz im freakn out bcuz i have a test on this n the a.m. N im nottttt ready . . . .wish me luck!!!

soooo i havent posted in a minuteeeeeee but thats cuz i was fucced up for the past 3day lol

HAPPY NEW YEARSSSSSSSS

i said that alotttttt lol

damn CIROC is hella fuccn smooth! hangovers succ balls!!!

i got my 1st new years kiss ever (i no sad huh?) but it was mos def worth the wait!!! thanx babe!

made BFF"s!!! shouts to dreez and jazz!

uhh wat else?

sleept on the table @ denny"s!! (uncomfortable)

random white boy interrupted our shots of watever that was n the parking lot lol

uhhhhh

I BUST MY FUCCN LIP!!!! IDK HOW THO :\

made a random 7min phone call to jasmine(mikes girl) idk wth i was sayin lol

lets cccccccccc

i dont really remember the rest

allllll i no is

it was the best mutha fuccn new years everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

happy anniversary baby!

it seems as if only yesterday we were getting home from our 1st valentines together and we were laying in your bed and i stared in your eyes and was so scared yet happy knowing that from that moment on id be yours. it was a scary journey i cant lie. getting out of a relationship and coming from the things ive been through and having in my head that maybe true love and a good man didnt exist for me. then those goofy words u said to me changed my life..."looking good..." hahaha who woulda ever guessed that we'd be right here? i remember when u told me u loved me :) i wasnt expecting it @ all...but then again u always seem to amaze me! despite the fact that u were scared i wouldnt feel the same, that didnt hold u back and for that im happy! baby u mean so much to me and im so proud to know that because of u i have true love and a man i can say truely loves me. i no we'll be that young couple that despite what people think or say WILL MAKE IT! i look forward to spending the rest of my life with u baby and raising our kids & even seeing ur goofy ass in your jordans as i walk down the aisle. :) because the only thing that matters is that we make this official! idc wat people think or say baby because i love u and nothing in this whole world can change that! i cant wait to spend the rest of our lives together baby....i love u forever....ur wife

Many things come not all @ once but as little gifts here and there.Sometimes the thought of it not being what u want can cause hesitance to open it. . .

Having the thought of dissapointment yet once again. . .Not realizing there's nothing to loose but only wondering what if? What if i dont open my gift? Will i miss out on what i actually want? What ive longed for all this time?

Could it be hidden in this tiny box?

All i need...is it possible to fit in there?And if i open it. . .will i be happy with it? Will it fulfill my desire and live up to my expectations? Or will it last a lifetime? What if?

What if im lost with dissapointment and become heartless once again as a result of being let down constantly?

However. . .what if its exactly what ive wished for all this time? Yet im still living in fear of it not being what i think. . .

Ive come to realize fear in something is only caused by not wanting to become constantly dissapointed and heartbroken. . .

So. . .i put it to the side and stop wondering what if. . .

As i unwrap my gift i realize it feels different than ne other gift ive ever unwrapped. . .as if this tiny box has so much more than ive ever been offered my whole life. . .

I look in amazement as my tiny gifts become a greater gift as time goes by . .this gift is far greater than any imagination could have imagined!

The way it feels in my heart lets me no ive gotten my complete gift. . .Ive gotten my perfection. . .the greatest things come in tiny packages. . .what can be so great to have me writing this confession of my hearts gratitude?

LOVE. . .the feeling he gives me when he stares in my eyes. . .how complete i feel in his arms. . .him telling me im beautiful and not just saying im sexy or fine. . .him introducing me to his whole family. . .him whispering in my ear how he loves me. . .waking up and he's staring in my eyes. . .the butterflies i still get. . .and most importantly. . .

The feeling of. . .TRUE LOVE. . .

When u come across a tiny gift and ur scared of whether or not its all u need or have wanted for so long, dont be scared. . .just remember. . .

Many things come not all @ once but as little gifts here and there. . .

All I Want For Christmas is........

MY YORKI ( yorkshire terrier)

sooooo i've been wanting this dog since forever and a few days! lol It's so freakin cute! The only thing is i have 3 dogs already lol and soooo im not to sure about another one but if my WONDERFUL, SEXY, LOVING BOYFRIEND got this for me and trusted me when i say my grandma wouldn't kill him then it would be just fine!!! lol I mean it's perfect!!! He doesn't know what to get me for Christmas yet ( i don't think ) soooo he might as well just go adopt an adorable poor puppy that needs a loving mommy and daddy like us to take care of it! RIGHT???!!!

SHEESH!!! Someone should help me in convincing him!!!

Our Sweetest Love Song. . .

Lets make a song. . .

U be my pen & i'll be your paper
Write on me the sweetest love song. . .

Ill be your favorite song If ull be my favorite singer
Write with me the sweetest love song. . .

What's a love song without true emotion?
The true knowledge of what love is?

Sing to me what a true love song is. . .

Ur like my vocal coach, Helping me find the right tone for
My sweetest love song. . .

Baby can i sing to you a true love song. . .

Be my instruments n help me compose
The sweetest love song. . .

Show me how to hold the instruments i'll need to compose a steady beat for
My sweet love song. . .

As the days go by

you show me the steps of how a true love song should go. . .

and finally. . .

I've found my sweet love song baby
And from this day forward i sing it everyday because it's my favorite

So. . .
Let's play this song for life. . .

And call it OUR SWEETEST LOVE SONG. . .

alcohol??

ok soooo i no its onlyyy 11:08 a.m. but i need a drink. its been a really rough month n i think i freakn deserve it! school, fam drama etc.! yea i think ive done prettyyyyy good! i promise im not an alcoholic! its just been 1 of those months! i need 1 of those Sobe's adrianna had! lol hahaha good times. so babe u should get that absolute out ur fridge n have it ready for me when i get there :) lol